I feel even more overwhelmed than I have in some time. It might have to do with the fact that I am constantly preparing new recipes that are made from scratch and gluten free OR because my once sweet daughter is acting like a rebellious, hateful teenager at 8. Not sure - but she is working on my last nerve. I know parents are supposed to ooooww and ahhhh and gush about their kids all of the time - but that is SO FAKE. We live in the real world in my house and it is not always a bed of roses. My kids torture each other until I have to flip out.... my husband forgets to take the trash out or help around the house - unless I flip out... and then they all look at me and want to know why I am flipping out. Well - UM - figure it out.
I know that once the kids are back in school, I can prepare my baking/cooking and work schedule around their activities and school hours. It is just really hard to juggle things in the summer. I just am tired of apologizing for cooking/baking fresh meals and having to work (I REALLY try and get it done on off hours) while they want to do something else.
It does not help that my 8 year old has lost her flipping mind this summer and her behavior is wayyyy out of control. We do not hit our children, but sometimes I wonder if one good whopping would not cure her of her smart mouth and shitty attitude... Probably not. She is too stubborn.
I do not enjoy this part of parenting. The part where you do everything except breath for your children - and they act like you are the worst parent and never pay them attention... I know it will only get worse as they get older - but wasn't I supposed to get a moment in time where she was sweet and cuddly and sincere? My son has his moments, but he is the polar opposite of her.
I may go and look for a shred or two of my sanity in a nice bottle of Chardonnay this evening...
p.s. - have I mentioned how exhausting being healthy and making (almost) everything from scratch, is? :-P
p.p.s - I lost 22 lbs. Yeah me...
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